"Plans for a hope and a future"

I always feel the need to "purge" when I'm struggling. I think in writing, if that makes sense? Things come to me in "book" format, then it quickly leaves, so if I don't write it down, I loose half of my growth that happens! We are heading into one of those ...for better OR WORSE times in our married lives! The time when you have to struggle to remember the cute things your spouse used to do and when the real work begins. Everyone has those times and has to make a decision to toil through it. Since I can only speak for myself, not having financial security has caused a fear reaction within me. As a stay-at-home Mom, I am unable to remedy this problem and am in complete submission and mercy to my husband. This is not a place I am comfortable, nor enjoy, nor do with much grace! Without going into gory detail, everything we have worked for is at risk of being lost. I do not say this in a dramatic way, but as our reality. We have sold most things that are not of basic use, or compelling sentiment. We have empty rooms in our large home, a for sale sign in our yard and idea where we're heading. We received an offer on our house, and although there are many hoops to make this sale a reality, we are literally standing on a ledge. We are tossed between moving our family to California to be near family and pursue a bigger job market and staying where we've been for 15+ years with friends, church, kids' school and lives and everything we've ever known.
Ok, I said what we don't have, here's what we do have: a roof over our heads, food to fill us, friends who are praying and blessing us, family who has offered to support us and take us in, clothes that keep us warm, heat, vehicles for transportation, ours and our kids' health, access to Doctors if we're sick and medicine to rid illness, a marriage of 14 years, a beautiful family with 3 amazing children, memories of joy and fun, clean water to drink, a phone to take calls from our mortgage company, a God who loves us and promises hope and a future. **A verse moment: Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I'm sure there is much more, my shallowness to realize, proves my state right now. Off to put my treasures to bed, tonight is my night, as my daughter so happily reminds me!